Closer n closer to exams le. jiayou everyone. dun give up now..

But although its onli few daes, im far from ready to actually get wad i want..

but i will continue working.
YES, I CAN DO IT!!

was pondering alot yesterdae, realli realli alot. n thanks those who listened to me n gave comment, i appreciate it.

todae was pretty slacky i guess, felt like sleeping alot, but swimming woke me up lah. in lit i was like jus staring n staring into space. Lit sure is sth tough..but yet i dont give a damm bout it.

tmr's one last dae for me to do it..n hopefully i will

So had Paper1 todae. Guessed it was okay bah. still manageble, at least it was the type where I could think of sth to write, and not some chim chim ques. But i think i went a little off in my chinese compo..but erm, wads over is over. nvm. My destiny as of now is still in my hands. I can do it..Yes! I can do it..

Here we are
at the crossroads once again
I'm telling you i'm so confused
I cant make up my mind
Is this meant to be?
Youre asking me..

And let me ask..
What do u tink of frens who leave u when u need them, esp when u were there when dey needed u?
And what do u think of frens who just never think of u or put u into consideration until they realise they need u??

To U: Dun worry lah, its not u im talking about. I know that u sort of feel that it is u, but its not lah. u have been there for me though u might not have realli felt it. But u have, and i do appreciate it.

*The "U" can refer to anybody lah, so dont suppose that the U is talking about u..but again, only U know who that U is..

hah. how weird..

Quote of The Day:

"不以善山而不?, 不以?小而? 之" - 孔子
*If you cant see the chinese characters.."bu4 yi3 shan4 shan1 er2 bu4 wei2, bu4 yi3 e4 xiao3 er3 wei2 zhi1"

hahax..this morale being imparted to us by our dear form teacher. But i cant really remember wad it is all about le. I tink it is sth bout wad making a doing sth wrong in a small situation is equal to doing the same thing in a bigger situation. U still commit that offence. hee..

Correct me if im wrong..

Shall touch on sth tougher now..

I thought it was going to be pretty budding between us. But now i have doubts, serious doubts. Especially after todae. Are you really the opposite of who i see you are?? I am not trying to believe what i hear of you, for i believe you are not that. I dunno, I realli dont..

tired. just mentally drained..so stressed out.

Its not a problem now of studying for exams and the amount we have to memorise and stuff, but its finding time to study. And that is wad worries me..

Time is running out..

My goals..

My aspirations..

Today was a pretty sian day i guess. hmm. let me see wad happened..

Art was slack again. But now got some theory paper. from how i fared in the pratise todae, i guess i will easily fail bah. its like. i cannot name most of the art pieces she showed. Den wad analysis, evaluate n stuff. dunno wad it is all about. den we were supposed to draw wad RV students animation...crap. i simply do. 15 mins job..

den had culture test. hmm. i shant blog bout that. undesirable ppl are reading blogs nowadays..

had a sleepy science lesson. bored lah..i guess nth much interesting bout d day lah. jus tt i was turned down by so many ppl after sch todae jus for a lunch lah..

Was thinking bout something said by someone in class at the end of last year..

"The (class') boys next year will be spilt into 2 groups. One group is the lirui, jingwei group while the other is the kah lok and chang lok group"

Its now almost the end of dis year. Did it happen?

Nah. I dont really think so. The guys i feel are still going well together, mixing around with each other. I dont really know wad im trying to prove or show here lah. was jus thinking bout it loh.

Hmm..did we move forward as a class this year?? Or are we still the same as last year??

I dunno...

i tink i better do sth n make up my mind and really commit myself. Its like, I'm slowy losing u all one by one just because i keep procrastinating. And it hurts. I think have to make a desicion before I lose even more. And it also gets more and more painful. Its like, i thought i had that, but because i kept waiting n waiting and not make a desicion, i lost that to someone else. And its painful.

And so i better get to a desicion fast, before i lose even more..and more..

*U wont know wad im talking about. it might seem like crap to u. maybe onli a few will understand bah. so if u dun understand, forget it. reading it over n over again wont help.

hols over le. so fast, tmr gotta return to sch. n im looking forward to it. or not hols can be sian at times loh. so yeah, i can get to see u le. but it's gonna be a tough dae tmr, realli realli tough.

*u noe wad i mean.

haha. first time i no needa pia hwk on d day b4 sch start. heh. im so happi.

hmm. RV's going ip, but its none of my business...

okay. so its d mondae of d hols. n wad have i done so far? nth..nth at all..
n tt is bad, considering my results and also my targets.
but theres 1 achievement. i finished d entire math last night in 3 hrs...did till 3 am..
i wanna go study later on loh..but erm...i doubt i will lah.
nono...discipline is d word. i shall. weird..

on sat, went for some 10 hour confrence with fellow chairpersons. it was good. esp tt american guy. very inspiring n it gave me some perspective of d world. shall share some other time. though some of it quite far away like families n jobs, it was worth listening lah.

tmr got cca. sian. mus go school. but im looking forward to wads gonna happen after tt.

to u: cheer up! life aint worth getting sad over just bcos of 1 small event.